I used to wish that I could rewrite history
I used to dream that each mistake could be erased
Then I could just pretend I never knew the me back then
I used to pray that You would take this shame away
Hid all the evidence of who I've been
But it's the memory of the place You brought me from
That keeps me on my knees and even though I'm free
Heal the wound but leave the scar
A reminder of how merciful you are
I am broken, torn apart
Take the pieces of this heart
And heal the wound but leave the scar
Few days ago, a new thought hit me
while I was reading through Exodus.
All the laws in the Old Testament, the wierd rules,
difficult rituals, and the hard commandments
that God had given to His people, had a reason - a very speical one.
It was not because God wanted to make their lives miserable.
It wasn't because God was this mean, angry being.
It was because, to my amazement,
because of His love - His great, deep and true love.
God knew the Israelites very well.
He knew their deepest hearts and their desires.
He knew their weaknesses and ther thendency to sin.
The loving Father knew that they would forget Him very easily;
thus He lovingly gave them ways to remember the God
who delivered them from death and bondage.
God provided a way for purposeful rememberance because He loved them.
And that same God who loved the Israelites,
loves me today with the same great love.
The lyrics of this song, 'heal the wound but leave the scar'
penetrates my heart with Truth.
So many times I wished I could rewrite history,
leaving out all the mistakes I made and taking all the shame away.
But when God lifted my eyes off of myself to Him,
I realized the beautiful, amazing and stupendous greatness of God.
Even the ugliest mistakes, God can use for His good
when we turn our eyes back to Him.
He uses them to keep us in the right place,
the place of grace and of humility.
Before I went through some 'history' that I wanted to erase,
I was full of self-righteousness and pride.
The shame is painful, but the tears are joyful at the same time
because for the first time,
I experience true humility - true dependence on Christ.
I can never thank Him enough - Jesus Christ and His cross for me.
I can never thank Him enough, so I say once again tonight,
Lord thankyou so much.
Thankyou for your true love.
Thankyou for you reminder
Thankyou for healing the wound
and for leaving the scar.
